Wish You Can See Yourself on Replay?

I just finished taking videos of myself Tahitian dancing. When I replayed the videos, I'm like "Whoa, do I really dance like that?" Amongst all my blubber flapping around, I watched my fa'arapu (those round fast circle movements) as it jerked around. Ugh! I took more videos, watched it again; maybe the angle was funny. Ah! Same thing. I decided to watch the videos on my laptop, maybe I can see it better? Nope. I still sucked. Geez, do I need work! Good thing I watched myself because now I know I need to practice more frequently than those two hours on Saturday and Sunday.

Imagine doing a replay of yourself at a party enjoying yourself with friends. Perhaps enjoying yourself too much. How about watching a video of yourself in discussion with coworkers at work. Haha! Who's the bitch now?

Think about the person you are and want to be and how you look to other people. Is the person you want to be and the person that people see you as the same or completely different? Occasionally, ping that idea off of a close friend that will be honest with you. Maybe she can provide you with some good feedback that you can reflect on.

I'm not saying that you should be concerned about what people think of you. First start with #1, which is you and assess who you are as a person and what kind of person you want to be. As long as you are happy with the person you are looking at in the mirror every morning, then it's all good.

I see myself as a compassionate person, thoughtful of others, and receptive, hardworking and loyal. I am also impatient, loud, with attitude. I've toned it down over the years and I'm learning to relax and breathe during stressful periods.

But just ask yourself, "Who am I? Am I that person I want to be?" If not, then do something to bring that person back.


~ Lorace