Thursday, January 8, 2009

Wish You Can See Yourself on Replay?

I just finished taking videos of myself Tahitian dancing. When I replayed the videos, I'm like "Whoa, do I really dance like that?" Amongst all my blubber flapping around, I watched my fa'arapu (those round fast circle movements) as it jerked around. Ugh! I took more videos, watched it again; maybe the angle was funny. Ah! Same thing. I decided to watch the videos on my laptop, maybe I can see it better? Nope. I still sucked. Geez, do I need work! Good thing I watched myself because now I know I need to practice more frequently than those two hours on Saturday and Sunday.

Imagine doing a replay of yourself at a party enjoying yourself with friends. Perhaps enjoying yourself too much. How about watching a video of yourself in discussion with coworkers at work. Haha! Who's the bitch now?

Think about the person you are and want to be and how you look to other people. Is the person you want to be and the person that people see you as the same or completely different? Occasionally, ping that idea off of a close friend that will be honest with you. Maybe she can provide you with some good feedback that you can reflect on.

I'm not saying that you should be concerned about what people think of you. First start with #1, which is you and assess who you are as a person and what kind of person you want to be. As long as you are happy with the person you are looking at in the mirror every morning, then it's all good.

I see myself as a compassionate person, thoughtful of others, and receptive, hardworking and loyal. I am also impatient, loud, with attitude. I've toned it down over the years and I'm learning to relax and breathe during stressful periods.

But just ask yourself, "Who am I? Am I that person I want to be?" If not, then do something to bring that person back.


~ Lorace

Monday, January 5, 2009

Recovering From a Case of "The Mondays." Back to Work After the Holidays

You having a case of the Mondays? How about coming down with the post-holiday, going back to work blues? I've been infected too and I'm recovering in my nice warm bed under my down blanket, watching old Beyonce and Destiny's Child music videos.

Last night, I went to bed at 10PM. I laid there for about an hour before I finally fell asleep. It's really hard going to sleep so early after so many days of sleeping around 2AM and waking up nearly to lunch time. Dayum, did that feel good ((sigh)).

This morning, my alarm went off at 4:35AM. Snoozed it. I finally got up, showered, got dressed, and prettied my face. I wrapped my new $5 pea green scarf from the Filipino market and jumped into my car to head to work.

Cold. And that was the theme for the day, even in the office. My winter coat and scarf stayed on the whole day except for when I had to tinkle (don't want my scarf falling in the toilet).

What a way to start off a Monday, after the holidays, getting in to work at 6AM, freezing my ass off in a perfectly good office building used to house some of the best engineers in the Bay Area. Their own HVAC system don't even work!

It was hard trying to write a weekly input on activities from 3 weeks ago, in the cold, on a Monday after the holidays, with puke pea green fuzz collecting all over my dress pants and on to the floor, wishing I was snuggling in my cozy warm bed, watching free, melodramatic Korean movies on mysoju.com, tightly clutching my snot ridden tissues. ((sigh))

Okay, back to reality...


~ Lorace